I woke up feeling uneasy. I couldn´t understand why I was feeling that way, because there was no apparent reason for that mood.
At the beginning I thought I was feeling like that because of a bad dream I could not remember. But as the morning advanced, I understood that feeling was the result of a long chain of events that had finally collapsed upon my shoulders, causing this gloomy mood on me.
While trying to find the cause of this awful feeling, I realised that I was digging into all the negative events that appeared in my life in a while. As I was trying to find in each one of them the “real culprit” for my actual temper, my soul felt more and more depressed.
But the worst part was, that with every event I recalled, I felt more and more dejected. This was not helping me at all.
Now, after that time travel to my past tragedies I began to feel concerned of not being able to travel back to the present. Every bad memory was making a real havoc in my mind. But the moment I felt I was losing control of my feelings, I decided to push the break to the bottom and regain my power back.
So, first my good friend the dark chocolate bar, came to my rescue!
Then I allowed that sadness to slowly fade away and began to focus on the precious privilege of being alive.
As a human you are nor perfect, therefore you cannot expect you to be happy and positive all the time.
Our hard lessons in life have a reason to exist, they have made us wiser and stronger, so we should feel thankful for their work on our spirit.
Of course, there is sadness in life, that is a fact for everyone, but there is also lots of beauty.
I know sometimes it is almost impossible to find that beauty around us, when things get tough, beauty, perfection and positivism vanish from our sight. But as every cycle in this universe, if you hold on till the tide changes, you will see the Sunlight coming into your heart once more.
Take baby steps towards your day, do your things, do your part the best you can. Find the best method for you to regain that power back.
For me, long walks make wonders. A long promenade will help me reclaim my inner strength as my body cleans the opaque views, making my recovery easier.
Allow yourself to find the time to reconnect with your own strength, courage and happiness. Live your life to the fullest, with its sweet and bitter, but do not dwell to long in the dark side.
You know very well that everything will be alright, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but eventually, the Light will bath your path once more.
I know it is not going to be easy, but you know it is going to be worth it. Your anxiety will not make miracles, but a calmed mind can find solutions and create them faster.