Next morning…

 

The merry voices of fishermen coming back from a hard day of being under the Sun for hours, was mixed with the voices of hundreds of people returning home in those huge boats called Vapur.

Everybody looked tired but happy, since their workday had finished and they were free to relax and forget about their problems for a while.

The coffee shops were full of men talking and laughing as if they were the happiest people on Earth.  Everything looked in order everywhere you looked.

The Bosphorus Bridge was packed with cars going both directions, loaded with people wishing to get home as soon as possible so they could share a delicious meal with their loved ones. Continue reading

Your silence

 

Nowadays, empty words are such a trend. Everybody has to say something all the time.

Even when they do not know what to say or they have no idea of what they are talking about.

If someone else is talking about something that happened to them the day before, people usually have an anecdote “more interesting”, “more frightening”, “more fabulous” to add.

If someone has some kind of illness or is going through a difficult time, there will always be that person who is going through something much more terrible than the others. As if demeaning other´s people problems and dilemmas was some kind of contest. Continue reading

The adverse

My bed was shaking and I was still deeply asleep. I did not know what was happening but the whole room began to shake in a frightening way. The noise of things falling and breaking was loud and terrifying. I could hear people shouting and dogs ferociously barking in the background. But I was not sure yet what exactly was happening.

I was very tired after a whole week of hard work and not sleeping properly, and that morning I would had overslept, had that earthquake not occurred.

I barely remember how I manage to get out of the house and what happened next. I just remember that every second felt like an hour and that the whole street was a total chaos.

The sound from the ground was so intimidating, the sense of helplessness was overwhelming. There you feel so small and the power of nature is all you can perceive.

Suddenly the land under my feet slowly stopped its movement and everything around me was dust, fear and confusion. Continue reading

 Let them go

One of the hardest things in life is, when someone we love, leaves permanently.  When a loved one leaves this physical plane or just follows a different path, it is hard for us to admit it.

Sometimes we even get really mad with God, the Universe or just Destiny, but it is always very difficult to accept and understand their departure.

I was talking with a group of students about the death of a famous singer who was killed by a gunshot by accident, (He was mistaken by somebody else). Continue reading

It’s ok (Note to self)

It’s OK to wake up one morning feeling drained, without your usual joy of life on and to decide in that very moment to take the day off. Just to gather enough strength to carry on with your journey.

It is valid to decide today not to feel gratitude for the good things you have got and, to let your heart feel that nostalgia for the days and people who are no longer here with you.

It is acceptable to decide to let anger and sadness to fill your heart and soul for a while because those feelings are a part of your human nature and have a reason to exist in you. Continue reading

 Forever

I was very impressed when I listened a professor once who was explaining how our mind was not capable to understand the infinite. “Our mind is finite, therefore it cannot understand the concept of infinite”. He explained.

When they say there is a probability that “the universe was never created and it will never end” our mind immediately enters in conflict, because “eternity” is not an easy concept to grasp. Continue reading

You are still alive

He was a very active person, one of the most enthusiast men you can imagine. He was a prominent member of his community and General Director of his company. It was very difficult to locate him since he always was doing something somewhere, you know what I mean.

I always thought he would travel the world when he retired. He was so energetic I knew he would enjoy his live to the fullest after his retirement.

He didn’t.

He died exactly three months after retiring. Continue reading

New view

Last time I was there I was feeling sad and tired.  The field looked at that time dry and colourless. The weather was fine but I felt it cold and asphyxiating. I had lost an aunt who had been as my second mother all my life and from that moment on, life would be very different to what I thought it would be my reality for ever.

A photograph captured that moment. I never dared to see that photo again so it remain for many years hidden in a box.

The image of that field never changed. In my memories it was dry, cold and gloomy. I had never returned to visit that place in all these years. Continue reading

 What is your scorpion?

I was overhearing a group of ladies in a park, complaining about the existence of bad ugly things and people.

One of them was saying that God shouldn’t allow bad things, people or events to exist. The rest of the group around her nodded in agreement.

I continued my walk thinking that when I was a little child I had that same stance towards scorpions. I was really afraid of them. And I was so terrified of them that I attracted them by the dozens.  When we went to visit my cousins in a region where scorpions are very common, they always were amazed to see that as soon as I got to their place, little scorpions began to appear, in the walls, in the corners, under the beds (specially under the bed I used), on the ceiling, etc. Of course my fear was so STRONG that I attracted them. obviously. (This is a clear example of the Law of Attraction at work). That awful feeling of fear attracted them as soon as I was present. Continue reading

Disappointing

When you set your expectations on someone or something, you are at risk to be disappointed.  It is a part of life and it hurts very much, but believe me, it hurts even more when you are the one who is disappointing a loved one.

I know I have done that many times, not willingly of course, but I have disappointed people who had believed in me and, on the other side, I have been disappointed too.

I guess we all have been there. In both cases. Continue reading