Do you really want that?

 

She was still alive.

She had just finished her pulmonary emphysema treatment. She had barely come out alive of this whole situation, but at least, she was alive.

The last few months had been very difficult for her and her family. They were all exhausted and all they wanted was return to their daily lives as usual.

They wanted to put all that behind. Forget about it and pretend that it never happened with a smile on their faces.

Of course, the doctors forbid her to even look at a cigarette ever again!

And, in the beginning, she said she would do everything in her power to regain her health and her life once more.

But, in her heart, things were very different.  Continue reading

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What comes next…

 

I remember when I used to get very nervous when things got difficult and I was not able to see the end of the tunnel.  When life´s colours were of the darkest nature and everything seemed to be doomed to failure. I felt lost and terrified.

It took me years of getting up and falling again, to try and fail and of learning and relearning the same lessons again and again, to realise that what comes next might not be as bad/terrible as it seems at first.

I used to give up as soon as things got difficult, as soon as I could not see the end of the road and when people told me that I was a lost case with no hope whatsoever.  That is, I gave up constantly.

But one day you get tired of listening to what the others try to put into your mind, you stop believing and living the life others are trying to impose you and then you begin to shine with your own true colours. Continue reading

This is who you are…

Probably you have been told many times that you are cold, bold, rude or even indifferent.  But when you stop and observe yourself, you cannot understand why they think that way about you.

Most times the image other people have about ourselves is very different than our own.  And if you ask the people around you how do they look at you (even your close ones) you will be surprise with the results.

That strength that has helped you to get through many difficult times and that now is keeping you on your feet and making you feel self-assured, others might take it as rudeness, coldness or meanness. Continue reading

Your strength is…

 

She felt really down that morning. She had been trying to be strong for too long and that takes a lot of effort. Her strength was beginning to fade away and the despair was more than evident in her eyes.

She looked at me with the saddest eyes I have ever seen in my life.  Her voice projected her inner state and after saying hello in a taciturn voice, she told me that she felt she could not bear it anymore.

Life had treated her unkindly and she has been going through a difficult period in all areas of her life.

She knew quite well, that she needed to change her attitude, thoughts and feelings so she could jump back on her feet once more.  But this time she felt that was just too much for her to accomplish.

She asked me to give her just one aspect of her that could give her hope for the future.

“Tell me just one thing to make me feel strong once more” She said with a desperate voice. Continue reading

It´s about to get easier

I know, these have been very difficult times, lots of tests, lots of lessons yet to learn but, if you look back now, you can contemplate a long and very bumpy road behind you.

If they had told you, in the beginning, that the road ahead of you would be so ragged, probably you would have chosen a different path.  Nevertheless, you are here now, you transited that hilly highway and here you are, taller, stronger, wiser. Congratulations!

When I learnt to skate by myself, I did fall many times, bruised my knees, crashed against other skaters, Streetlights, walls and many other hard objects I found on my way to master it. It was a very painful learning period, but it was totally worth it.

Skating has been for me a wonderful way to feeling myself really free. Feeling the air caressing my face while I glided around the rink, has been one of the most wonderful experiences in my life. Continue reading

The Sanctuary

It took me half a day to reach the top of that mountain, a small Buddhist sanctuary stood there lonely in the middle of nothing.

The monk in charge of that small place smiled at me as soon as I reached the entrance and invited me to seat beside him on a wooden bench by the main door.

I looked exhausted and messy after the long climb. He looked radiant and happy. I told him about my great climbing adventure as if it was a once in a lifetime odyssey. He calmly told me he goes to town twice a day, so he does that “odyssey” four times every day.

I remained silent for a while. Continue reading

This was not my plan

When I was a child, I had a very different idea of what my life would be.

I wanted to be an astronaut, an explorer, a fireman, a superhero, an engineer. Well from all these options, I only became the latter.

The truth is I never dreamt of travelling the world, meeting very interesting people from different backgrounds and being who I am today.

I am not judging here, whether it was good or bad to be who I am today; I just know it was the best option for me.

Of course I didn’t accomplish all the things I wanted, at least not yet, you never know what is coming next. But looking in retrospective, I have accomplished many things I never thought possible. Continue reading

I am the obstacle

 

I was trying to remember the precise moment when I started to materialise my wishes like crazy, one after the other.  And then in what precise moment I stopped doing it.

I remember that when I learnt about the Law of Attraction I was really excited about the new discoveries I was making and at the same time I was not limiting myself on what I wanted to manifest in my life.

But after sometime my old ideas started to slow me down and then I stopped asking and setting goals.

Then it was when things became difficult again. Continue reading

The thin line (Rambling)

One of the hardest things for me is trying to identify the difference between a “forced” situation and a “natural” one.

And now I know I am not alone there, because that is one of the most frequent questions I get asked all the time.

When I am trying to “force” an event, an action, a response to something that suddenly appears in my path.  I have learnt to “measure” my direction depending on the “roughness” of the road.  That is, when you are finding too many “rocks” on your path, that could be a signal that you are transiting the wrong road. Continue reading

Here

We always talk about being present, we are constantly remembered that we need to focus our attention on the “here and now” if we want to lead a happy life.

But have you noticed how difficult “being here” really is?

This modern life has too many distractors around us and our mind is getting used to pretend it can “multitask”, that means doing multiple task at one time. But that is not possible for humans.  Yes, I know most women think they can do it because they usually have to keep their mind on different things at the same time, but human multitasking is very different to computer multitasking. Continue reading