Procrastinating your well-being

“And when I have a new house, then I will be happy” this woman said to her companion in a loud voice as if she wanted the whole world to find out.

“Then I shall know that everything I have done was worth it, all the pain, all the hard work, my suffering.”  The lady who was sitting beside her looked at her in silence.

“Then I’ll be able to smile again and know everything will be alright. “she concluded in a triumphant tone.

The lady who was travelling with her asked her after a few seconds: “how long have you waited for that to happen?”

“Thirty years” the first lady answered.

Starting once more

I have heard often that deciding to begin something is a very difficult part of life. And yes, many times we waste a lot of time trying to determine what is the best course of action for our next step.

Deciding how to begin, could be very stressful but, what about starting all over again?

When you face something new you could be driven by enthusiasm, excitement, expectations and sometimes just plain ignorance of what is ahead of you.

But when you are facing something you have tried before and failed, your decisions could be loaded with anxiety to fail once more. Your past mistakes are huge ghosts difficult to overcome most times.  They are there to remind you that you were there before and you did something wrong and therefore you could repeat that error once again.

Unanswered petitions

Many times I have question myself, the Universe, God, etc., why some of my petitions, prayers, dreams never came true.  I even have felt hurt and ignored because of this.

I know we all have gone through an experience like this but, sometimes we forget it and, despite seeing later that the results we would have received were totally different to what we expected in the first place, we allow that feeling of rejection, frustration, etc., to abide in our hearts once more.

I remember a long time ago, a friend wanted so bad to travel to a big city with his friends. His parents oppose to that trip and he got very frustrated and mad at them.

He had been planning that trip for months but in the end, his grades at school had been much lower than expected and his parents decided he had not “earned” that trip.

Disappointing

When you set your expectations on someone or something, you are at risk to be disappointed.  It is a part of life and it hurts very much, but believe me, it hurts even more when you are the one who is disappointing a loved one.

I know I have done that many times, not willingly of course, but I have disappointed people who had believed in me and, on the other side, I have been disappointed too.

I guess we all have been there. In both cases.