Uneasy

I woke up feeling uneasy. I couldn´t understand why I was feeling that way, because there was no apparent reason for that mood.

At the beginning I thought I was feeling like that because of a bad dream I could not remember. But as the morning advanced, I understood that feeling was the result of a long chain of events that had finally collapsed upon my shoulders, causing this gloomy mood on me.

While trying to find the cause of this awful feeling, I realised that I was digging into all the negative events that appeared in my life in a while. As I was trying to find in each one of them the “real culprit” for my actual temper, my soul felt more and more depressed.

But the worst part was, that with every event I recalled, I felt more and more dejected. This was not helping me at all. Continue reading

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When I was a child, I was always questioning why “bad” things existed.

Why God had invented “pain”, “fear”, “sadness” and so on?

We would be much happier if there was no such thing as fear, right? But then, I was explained that without fear I would not be alive today.  If fear would not let me know my life is in danger when I approach a precipice, I would continue walking and probably fall to my death. But fear was there to stop me in time and keep me from jumping and getting killed or badly injured.

If that fear were not there to activate my instinct of conservation, then I would easily lose my hand when I cook or work with my electric saw. Or I could get easily killed by walking at night through dangerous places, etc.

So, that little voice is not that bad after all. Continue reading

NO

Just two letters, one word. Simple, small and so frightening for so many.

Avoiding the use this little word has brought more problems, misunderstandings, sadness and regrets than you can imagine.

Maybe we feel guilty when we say it? Maybe we feel we are being rude to the other person? Maybe we feel obliged to avoid it? Who knows but despite its size and simplicity, it is one of the hardest words to say for many people around the world.

Maybe we were educated to see that little word as “harsh”? Are we afraid to offend the other party? Disappoint them? Continue reading

Do not kill that feeling

I was in my teen years, so the way I felt and saw things was pretty intense. I was going through a difficult existential crisis and couldn’t control my depression.

I was feeling my world had ended and there was not a feasible solution ahead. Suddenly something happened and I had a strange experience, I was watching myself feeling and thinking negative absurd things. It wasn’t like an out-of-body experience, it was all inside my head, it was as if my brain was divided in two and one side was judging the other. Continue reading

Make them smile

I knew she had gone through a real hell, to say the least. She had to suffer big losses and in some way anything I could say wouldn’t help her to get over all that.

When a person is really suffering there is no much you can say to them.  They need to go through their mourn cycle and then time will help them heal some wounds. Not completely but they will smile again.  And most times that is something you can try. Continue reading

Beyond silence

I have met this friend for more than 10 years, he had been a very important person in the media industry and he had always been a very strong and “tough” person.  He had to, he was in charge of one of the biggest entertainment companies in this country.

He has a lovely family and they were his main treasure. Continue reading

Void

It is always difficult to let go of the things/people/ideas, etc., that have been our companions for years.  We feel certain “attachment” to them and just the idea of letting them go, makes us feel   uneasy and scared.

Someone dear to us decides to go abroad to study something new, something that has been of utility to us suddenly gets broken and is beyond repair, one morning we wake up feeling that that concept of idea is no longer serving us and, on the contrary, is causing us more harm than good. Continue reading

Water repellent

The other day I was watching a demonstration of a water repellent that was very impressive.

They showed two wood surfaces, on one of them they applied the repellent and left the other untouched. They sprayed a good load of water on both surfaces and the one without the repellent was soaking wet but the other was completely dry.  You could see the water slipping down the surface leaving the wood totally dry, untouched by the water. Continue reading